So at the end of April, right before my trip, I broke down. I stayed in bed for 2 days and just cried. I knew what I had to do. I didn't know if it was going to help or what, but I gave it until I came back to finalize my thoughts. And when I did, I knew I had to go.
Nate and I broke up in May.
I haven't made it public ( well, until now ) I've told my close friends, and family knows because Carol let them know. I couldn't live in Dover anymore, among other personal stuff. Nate and I don't hate each other. We are still friends. I still care about him. But I needed to come back to Carlisle. I needed to be closer to people and be in an area where I have the ability to walk to the grocery store when it snows instead of being trapped behind 3.5' of snow for 2 days. It's not the friendliest town. I don't have many friends here anymore. But I needed familiarity. I needed a new start. I needed independence. I needed to start over.
And starting over sucks. It's scary and it's hard and it's expensive. But it needed to be done. Sure, things aren't better like the flip of a switch--there are things that I want to do and goals I want to achieve. And the first few months haven't been how I'd imagined them either. So I'm just taking one day at a time and trying to be as true to myself as I can be without hurting anyone along the way.
In any case, on a less serious note, I found a cute apartment in town that I absolutely adore. It's more money than I've ever spent on a place but luckily, I make more than I did 3 years ago when I was living here before. I'm not going to state where exactly I live ( of course ) but I'd love to show you around!
Let's start with the living room:
|I spy a pug looking out the window|
|My Sofa's Unlimited couches!|
|The sliding doors that separate the rooms is one of my favorite accents|
|View from the bedroom looking out|
Some old stuff and some new stuff to tie the living space up. The high ceilings and the deep-set windows are also a big reason why I fell in love with this apartment. Also, this little feature:
My bedroom is huge, with plenty of space for activities. I have been thinking about getting a treadmill or elliptical to put in the room eventually. I also created a Pug Wall, so that will be fun to build on to!
|Just put new sheets on the bed!|
|Nice sized closet and lots of floor space; hate that I don't have central air, though|
|This area still needs a tad reorganized|
|The start of the Pug Wall|
The kitchen is decent. I wish I had a little more counter space, but it does the job:
|Old school stove|
|Miss having a dishwasher =(|
|Older sink--no counter space, but the medicine cabinet is luckily deep-set|
|View looking down from the steps; it has a decent sized tub, too|
|The tile is old but I tried to spruce up the space as best I could|