Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Ipsy Bag #11: Tres Jolie

We are coming up on the end of my subscription and although I didn't expect to like the products in this month's bag, I was pleasantly surprised.

I got another fucking lipstick which about sent me through the roof BUT I'm glad I did because I fell in love with it! I also didn't need any more brushes but, I guess a girl can never have too many.

So here we go with reviews!

Eva NYC Mane Magin 10-in-1 Primer
I used this spray for the first time last night after my shower. It smells amazing. I did not blow-dry my hair afterwards so, of course, I woke up to frizziness. But this product is supposed to protect from heat damage, help with detangleing, plus 8 other options that I won't list. If anything, I'd purchase this product simply for the scent!

tarte cosmetics tarteist Quick Dry Matte Lip Paint in Rosé
Not gonna lie, I was pissed to see yet another lipstick in my Glambag...BUT...I really like this texture and shade. The color looks great with my skin tone and I love the matte finish. I actually would consider getting a full sized product I like it so much.

Skone Cosmetics Luxe Pro Blending Brush
Blending? Brush?...okay...

DLS Cosmetics Blush in Kitty Pink
So ummm, the color name of this blush sounds a little risque dontcha think?? Aside from that, though, I love this color on my skin tone. I've been wearing it daily for that spring "glow". I think this product is probably a full-sized item because it's not a dinky little sample. Love it.

First Aid Beauty Ultra Repair Face Moisturizer
I've used this the last few nights after washing my face. I mean, it doesn't make me break out ( I did break out, but I don't think it was due to this moisturizer ) and it doesn't make me itchy so...a win for me. A little goes a long way, which is always nice, but if you didn't know that you'd have a lot of excess that you have to find a place for. 

All-in-all, I'd rate this bag a 5 out of 5. The bag itself is super cute, heavier duty AND larger than any bag I have received thus far. I am able to put all of my skincare products/samples in this bag for my "before-bed routine" which is super convenient.

Stayed tuned for my April ( and final ) review for Ipsy Glambags...then it's on to Birchbox!


Monday, March 13, 2017

I'm At A Loss

Drugs rob us of the people we used to know, and some we never had the chance to meet. It takes parents away from children, and children away from parents. We lose friends/brothers/cousins/aunts to the disease of addiction. No one should have to go through this, but unfortunately it's everywhere. And all it can take is "one good high"; a broken ankle and a prescription for Percocet...a night of partying and a line of Oxycontin...that "it won't happen to me" mentality. But in the blink of an eye, it *does*...and then it's a downward spiral of not wanting to feel sick, being able to function, etc. It turns the people you love into someone you don't know. And it turns good people into thieves and liars.

When someone close to you is battling an addiction to drugs, it becomes a waiting game. Failed attempts at rehab, possibly some arrests, anger and resentment towards your loved one for simply "not getting better". You are pretty much waiting for the call...and today, that call came.

Today, my boyfriend lost his sister in her battle.

I never really had the chance to get to know her. When Nate and I met over 2 years ago, she was already fighting the demon. I remember on our first date we were hiking at Colonel Denning and he told me about Victoria and her addiction. I could tell, even then, that it was hard for him. But we were just learning about each other, so he didn't want to get too much into detail. I empathized with him and felt the pain when he spoke. All I could say was that I hope she beat it and got better.

I only had the chance to meet her once. In and out of rehabs, I didn't hear or see much of her. I added her on Facebook after she came to our house last year for Christmas, so I got to get a small glimpse of the life she let people like her family see. We would even Snapchat back and forth from time to time; she knew I loved dogs so she would send me pictures of the ones she was grooming at the shop.

She was a beautiful girl with an adorable son who loved her to pieces.

She was a lover of animals ( like me ) and was a dog groomer by trade. At one time, she actually owned her own dog-grooming business.

She had many friends who cared for her and loved her.

She loved hard but also took no shit.

But as most stories seem to go, a past relationship got her hooked on pills...thus leading to an addiction to the cheaper alternative: heroin. And once you're in--you're in. Heroin takes prisoners with no intentions of letting them go. 

There's only two ways you can go with heroin: you either get clean, or you die.

Although I have never had a drug addiction, the concept always intrigued me. I've always had an interest in Intervention and documentaries that talk about drug dependence. And from the knowledge I've gained from others' experiences, these drugs take complete control of you physically and mentally. They take you over 100%. Day and night, it's all you can think about. A few harmless nights of partying could in turn leave you feening for your next fix. A work injury where narcotics are prescribed for pain control could easily lead to addiction. No one WANTS to be an addict, but sometimes when you fuck with fate, fate will fuck you right back.

You can never fully prepare yourself for such devastation. Although it does not hit me personally, the one I love is left with a missing piece of his heart. The family I have grown to love now must mourn the loss of one of their own. A son will have to live without his mother; siblings without their sister; a mother without her daughter. 

Please keep their family in your prayers tonight as we mourn the loss of a life taken too soon. A wonderful person that I never had the chance to get to know, but do not judge for we all battle our own personal demons.

May you rest in peace, Victoria. I'll take good care of your brother, okay? 💓


Friday, March 10, 2017

Looks Can Be Deceiving

I'm not gonna lie--even in 2017, where it's pretty much now the norm, I still get looks of disapproval or disgust because of my tattoos and piercings.

...and I'm not even covered in them!

I notice the change in body language and the way people talk to me because of my appearance. It's not a lot of people, but I notice it especially from people of authority. Whether it be other doctors, men in a suit and tie, or an old grandmother walking her dog. Luckily, I mostly get inquisitions about the stories behind my tattoos or compliments on how "pretty" they are...but there's others that you just can't please.

Again, the ink on my body and the holes in my skin do not dictate the person that I am on the inside. It does not determine my work ethic or my empathy or any of my internal characteristics.

Like I've written before, I once had an interview with a doctor who told me that she didn't like my stretched ears. Yes, I forgot to change them to solid plugs before my interview ( because it was right after work and so, I had had an early day and it slipped my mind ) but...why does that matter? Because she had an "appearance to uphold" and she "didn't think her patients would approve of my appearance". Um, what?! Your patients should approve of how I treat them, not my earrings. I politely declined a working interview a few days later via email...because I would never want to work with someone so narrow-minded and vain. 

But do you know how many medical professionals have tattoos?! Just because you don't always see them does not mean that they aren't there. Your ER surgeon, EMT, nurse practitioner or dentist could have a full sleeve and, if they're wearing a jacket, you would never know. So don't blame tattoos for bad people. It's art. It's self-expression. And it has nothing to do with who the person is as a whole.

Yes, I've been wearing a hoop in my nose. I usually change it over the weekend and then change it back to a stud for work. But I forgot come Monday and my boss didn't say anything about it negatively. So, guess what?...I didn't change it. As others come in and out of my office ( patients and colleagues alike ) I hope they realize instead of judge that my doctor realizes my ethics over my appearance. No, I'm not conventional...but I take my job seriously and I treat our patients with respect and empathy. I genuinely care. That's what he sees...not just the fact that I like body art and holes...

Slowly, but surely, body modification is becoming less of a "shock" to others, but it's still very taboo to certain social groups and ages. I wish it weren't the case, but it is. 

I don't have tattoos on my hands, my face...I don't have a naked lady on my arm or half a dozen facial piercings. I feel that what I show is tasteful and attractive and not a distraction to most. 

I know I cannot change people's minds on this topic; people are going to think as they see fit. All I can ask is that you don't judge a book by it's cover...please...

Go Home PA, You're Drunk!

So yesterday was a gorgeous day!; although a little breezy, it was 66* and sunny all day. Unfortunately I was trapped indoors most of the day, but it def helped to brighten the mood.

And now, only a day later, we have this:

...I think Mother Nature is schizophrenic.

This also shows the extent of the "made-up" concept of global warming. It was an unseasonably warm February here in South Central Pennsylvania, and now we have snow in March ( even though that isn't too uncommon ) But we won't go into that...

From my understanding, it's been snowing since early morning and it's still coming down. I'm unsure of how long it is to last, but luckily it does not seem to be sticking to the roads. I have no issues with snow as long as I am still able to drive in it; a little Toyota Corolla does not do too well in icy/slick conditions.

And apparently, it's not going to let up from here. The weekend doesn't look too promising, either.

Just look at this 10-day forecast!

We also may get up to 9" on Tuesday!! 😨

So everyone here in the Northeast...stay warm and stay safe! I guess it's good Netflix and chill weather, huh? LOL!

Sunday, March 5, 2017

For Your Viewing Pleasure

I don't really have a specific topic to write about, so here is some of my photography:

Taken with a Canon Rebel XT and edited using Lightroom 5.6


Thursday, March 2, 2017

Review: Gazelle by Tony Little

I don't have the money ( or the space ) for a "home gym", so I have the regular little things: some hand weights, a yoga mat, a set of kettle bells and a resistance band. I've also given into the infomercials in the past, buying an Ab Lounge that ended up becoming a second chair/gaming chair. So when it comes to the "newest craze" in As Seen On TV exercise machines, I usually pass.

But I have been looking into getting an elliptical/climber for my house lately. I had looked on Target's website and actually found a little $60 machine that had received decent reviews. Then I remembered OfferUp and decided to look on there. They had some awesome deals, but the machines were far too large for the space I could put it. 

Then I remembered: the Gazelle.

A few years ago, I had tried someone's out for about 20 minutes...she had to run into work and I wanted to kill time, so I thought why not? And I was surprised to feel the affects pretty quickly. So I typed in 'gazelle' into the search box and found multiple for under $35 ( it's an older machine ) It even has a display!

So the other day, I try this machine out. I do 30 minutes on the thing, not really expecting much of a workout. But I started sweating about 5 minutes in, which surprised me. I used it more like an elliptical rather than a glider, in hopes to pump it out with a little more enthusiasm. Clearly, it helped...because the next day, my calves and glutes were sooooooore! I even used ankle weights to help make the workout a little more worthwhile, also.

Since getting the Gazelle, I've used it twice. My intention was to acquire it for days where I'm not really feeling the gym, or I get out of work late. With it still getting dark earlier, it causes me to lack the motivation to go to the gym and not get home until dark. Luckily, though, we only have a few more weeks of that nonsense. 

I will say that the Gazelle is sturdy BUT, it does make noises when I use it. It may be because I'm may be because it's an older machine...I don't know. What I do know is that it does more than what I expected it to...

...and for $20, I can deal with that! Haha!