Sunday, May 13, 2018

Viva La Mexico

We got back on Friday but I've had a rough weekend emotionally since then. But since I'm feeling a wee bit OK today I thought I'd blog about my trip.

We flew Delta on the way in and I was impressed by the airline. We had individual televisions so I watched Ingrid Goes West on our way. Very odd movie--not what I was expecting. I was a tad anxious but it was a fairly smooth trip. No turbulence and the landing was nice. On our way back, we flew Spirit. It was not as good of a flight. Of course, it's cheaper to fly that airline ( but in all honesty, I think we paid just as much to fly Delta there ) but checked baggage was fucking $50 and the seats were shit. We had a rocky ride home and it was delayed by, like, 30 minutes. We finally got to my house around 9-9:30 PM.

View from our window

Our room

Anyways. Since Mexico is an hour behind us, we got to our room around 2:30 PM their time and immediately put on our suits and went down to check out the pools/water. I'm a travel virgin, so seeing the clear Caribbean waters took my breath away! It's like a saltwater bathtub of gorgeousness. We snapped a few photos and then went upstairs to lounge around a bit before dinner. We just decided to go to Coba, the buffet, on the first night. 


Dippin' my toes in the Caribbean

Day 2 we mostly spent poolside. We saw some dude trying to finger his woman's asshole in the pool ( I didn't see it personally, but I saw the aftermath ) We also met a girl who was alone because her friend wasn't coming in until later that day, so we invited her to hang with us until she arrived. Unfortunately, we think that she and her friend later stole from us so...not cool. I'm out a Lularoe Lindsay I was using as a coverup and Mal is out a pair of Tommy Hilfiger sandals. C'est la vie. We ended up trying out Hippy Chic and Moonlight that day ( meaning we had 2 lunches so, that evening I didn't feel very well ) Hippy Chic was more American food like hamburgers and chicken nuggets, while Moonlight was Italian. I had the best Hawaiian flatbread pizza there O.M.G. 

That pizza was to die for!


Day 3 is the day I'm pretty sure we both got pretty hammered. Haha. Todas las cervasas!! We met a very nice couple from Canada with whom we spent a good part of the day talking to in the pool. I participated in the toplessness of the resort on this day and we had a grand ole time. I think we went to lay down around 5 PM that day "before dinner" and ended up both passing out until almost midnight! We both woke up still drunk, and since we missed dinner we ended up ordering room service. I had an awesome spaghetti carbonara...then we both crashed again. Then around 3 AM we heard commotion outside of our door. We still don't know what happened...if someone was drunk and disorderly, they were foreign and we just couldn't make it out, someone fell...but Mal checked through the peephole to see a guy being escorted by security!

Before dinner

Selfie in my new romper get-up

Day 4 we, again, hung by the pool. We ended up going to Moonlight for dinner and then went to Kinky Nightclub to see what that was all about. Well, they ended up having karaoke that night and oh Lord was that fun. I did not participate because I was just a little too drunk to sing in front of a bunch of strangers, but this one chick completely KILLED IT with "Ice Ice Baby" and then this little Asian girl went HAM on "Hit Me Baby One More Time..." We stayed for a while but, since we are old, probably dipped around midnight.

Day 5 was normal routine, then we ended up checking out The Box for dinner. It is gastropub style and the food was AMAZING! Mallory said it was probably one of the best meals she's ever had. I was very impressed by it. It's a small restaurant with 4 courses so it was first-come-first-serve, but we got there early enough that we had no issues.

Shrimp with blackened tempura was dinner at The Box

And then Day 6, our last full day there, we kinda both just took time for ourselves. I read in a cabana by the Hidden Pool for a majority of the afternoon. I ended up not using as much sunscreen the last day which was a poor idea. My tattoos now have sun poisoning and I'm trying my hardest not to scratch them. Anyway, I stopped for sushi for lunch and then met up with Mallory. We swam a little bit, then headed back to the room to relax until our dinner reservation. We finished our trip eating at the Japanese fusion place Sakura Sunset. The food was yummy and the atmosphere was marvelous. 

The Hidden Pool

Lunch at Sushi Bar

After dinner shot post Sakura Sunset ( our last night )

We left the hotel on Friday around 11-11:30 and got back to my place around 9:30 was a long fucking day. 

Then this weekend...hasn't been the greatest. Unfortunately, even when on vacation, your problems don't disappear. And depression never takes a vacation so...yeah...

I had a wonderful time at the resort and a great time with Mallory. It was relaxing and chill and, since we aren't in our early 20s anymore, we didn't feel the need to run around like crazy doing things. And with work being crazy and full of unnecessary drama and dealing with horrible depression/my racing mind this winter, I definitely needed a break.

But now it's back to life...the reality that is. There's some things that need changed; I need to get back to the gym, I need to stop eating so much crap, I need to get a better handle on my mental health. And I need a better sleeping pattern because mine is totally off! Haha. 

Luckily, I took tomorrow off. But when Tuesday comes, it's back to the grind...

Friday, May 4, 2018

Daaaaay Onnnne

It's a dreary day in Central PA buuuuut my vacation officially starts today!

I will be spending 7 days and 6 nights in Riviera Maya starting in just over 24 hours!

My New Years resolution for 2017 was to spend less money on objects and more money on experiences. Unfortunately though, Haley got sick and after spending thousands of dollars in vet bills, I did neither. So I made it my goal to save the money up to go on my first ever "out-of-the-country vacation" before the next inevitable disaster arose. After talking to Mallory and searching Groupon, we decided on an all-inclusive resort in Mexico.

Funny story: when Mallory booked the resort, it was listed as "adults-only, all-inclusive resort". After further investigation ( details about the resort itself via their website--which I'll link to this post ) is actually a couples resort! HAHAHAHA! But after reading reviews on Trip Advisor, it seems that many non-couple groups have gone to this location--I'm assuming because of the same type of Groupon deal. 

We will be staying at the Grand Oasis Sens ( I now realize the Sens must be short for "Sensual" given the context ) We have a direct flight of about 3.5 hours straight to the Cancun airport, and our hotel is a 15 minute drive from there. We leave tomorrow at 10:15 AM!

As I type this, Mallory is on the PA Turnpike headed toward me. I'm currently in my bed, in pajamas, snuggling my puggle. Although I would've liked to sleep in a bit longer today, I'm enjoying just relaxing and thinking about the upcoming week.

We haven't really decided on doing any excursions due to, I guess, a bunch of people being kidnapped and killed by the Cartel down there...and, you know, my anxiety. LOL. I would've liked to gone snorkeling in Cozumel but apparently a few months ago a ferry blew up on its way there. But then again, we all gotta die someday! So we shall see what the week has in store, prices and what sounds good.

For the most part, I'm pretty much packed. I need to get a magazine and we are getting mini bottles and snacks. Our plan for today is a trip to Carlisle and getting lunch, along with Sweet Frog ( for her ) and Rita's ( for me ) Then we have mani/pedi appointments at 3 PM because my nails are so grown out and my toes/feet are grosssssss. And Mallory thought it wise to just stay in Baltimore overnight so we don't have to drive to the airport early tomorrow morning. So that should mean discounted daily parking rates, too. So I assume we will head that way shortly after our appointment.

Then one sleep and it's off to Mexico!

I'm very nervous but also super excited. I don't think it will be real to me until I'm on the plane.  

What are the essentials YOU pack for a vacation? Maybe it's something I missed. I gotta double check and make sure I don't forget anything muy importante!

And if you'd like to see pictures of my trip, you can find me on Instagram. My name is crazy_puglady.

Adios perras! 


Monday, April 23, 2018

My Last 2 Boxes

I didn't renew my Birchbox nor did I decide on a new subscription. I got my last two boxes in February and March, and ( as you can see ) I haven't made much progress with reviews. 

So let's get on with it, shall we?


ARROW BOOST Color Enhancing Lip Balm
So, I tried this on. I saw it on the Birchbox ads and yadda-yadda-yadda. To me, it reminds me of "mood lipstick". It also reminds me of kid-makeup. Why? Because the pink is farrrrrr too pink for my liking and I don't think it's flattering whatsoever. Also, when I applied it, I got pink *around* my lips, also. Since it's more of a balm, it doesn't really stay put. It made me think of when I eat a red or pink Popsicle and make a mess of my face with it. 

Number 4 Super Comb Prep and Protect
Smells great. Gets out the tangles.  Nuff said.

CLEAN Reserve Amber Saffron
This scent is light and floral and I really really liked it. 

Sunday Riley Good Genes All-in-One Lactic Acid Treatment
I've used it once or twice. It smells kinda bad ( due to the lactic acid, of course ) but I got no rash or discoloration. Always a plus in my book.

The Beauty Crop Wing Woman Liquid Eyeliner
The pen is just that--a pen. It's pretty hard at the tip and it feels like I'm using a marker to put on eyeliner. BUT--the precision because of that is great. And it goes on fairly dark, so you don't need to run it over your lid 582 times to get it all filled in. I like this eyeliner. Just be careful as to not take your eye out, LOL!

March ( and my FINAL! )

M.A.C Cleanse Off Oil
The first time I used this, I used it on a makeup removal round to remove my eye makeup. Apparently I was a little too aggressive because when I was done, my vision was blurry and I had raccoon eyes. I'm not good with remover oils soooo that's probably one reason. Also, I didn't read this until now but I guess you're to rinse so maybe THAT'S why ( hahahahaha! )

Supergoop! Daily Correct CC Cream
I really like this product and I've been using it quite frequently. My chin is a disaster lately and this CC cream is uber helpful in helping me try to conceal the monster. I use this all over my face, a concealer stick on the site and then a pressed setting powder. Viola! Slap on some mascara and a bitch ready for the day!

amika Brooklyn Bombshell Spray
As I've said before, I love me some bombshell spray. I only tend to use it if I am going to blowdry my hair, but sometimes I'll use it on my part to keep the flyaways down ( there are a lot more of them as I get older... )

ModelCo Luxecreme Long Wear Lipstick in Sienna
Love the color. Love the matte finish. DON'T like that it says "long wear" and I felt like it wiped away faaaaairly quickly. Anytime I get a new lip color I wear it to work and ask Jim what he thinks. This lasted on my lips maybeeee 3 hours. By lunchtime, it was pretty much gone.

Smashbox Cosmetics Insta-Matte Lipstick Transformer
I haven't this, honestly, because all the lipcolors I have currently...are already matte. But it states to avoid use on glosses, laquers and balms. So you are only to really use this product over a cream-based lipcolor.

Well that's all folks! I guess I'm going to have to start coming up with better topics to write about since I won't be receiving any box subscriptions anytime soon. Work's been crazy, Mexico is coming up, life as a whole is in a whirlwind, my anxiety has been on overdrive and my sister is expecting baby #2 in maybe I will delve into all of that stuff.

I guess just hang tight and we will see where we go from here. 

Sunday, March 18, 2018

What Is The Difference?

Living in such a technologically-advanced world is hard when it comes to dating and relationships. With apps like Tinder, Grindr, Bumble and the numerous other dating sites--the options are endless. But it seems like those options are also limited.

We, as young adults, accept far less than what we deserve...because society makes me seem like you shouldn't "get attached" to avoid being hurt, so Generation Z doesn't know how to have valid relationships. They've never seen them and they don't know how to pursue them.

 ...while us Millennials are still hoping for something with solid ground ( at least most of us )

But sometimes, things work opposite.

What if you find that "solid ground" but you feel more like you're settling instead of being in love?

Being in a relationship in 2018 is hard because of all the changes to the "fake-ass rules" that have come into play. If he treats you like shit, ghosts you and doesn't want to label anything then "he's a piece of shit". Yet girls will either continue to break their own hearts by chasing after this complete asshole or...she'll move on to the next. Because there are sooooooo many "next!" options. And some will continue running after the same asshole even WITH other options at their fingertips.

Or maybe you find a good guy/girl. They treat you really well and you like them, but maybe the passion or lust or attraction isn't really there. When you want the complete opposite of a fuckboy, you get the nice guy...but are you happy, or just taking the best option? The mentality of "this is the best I can get, I guess" or "it's better than being with an asshole"...

Why can't we all find the best of both worlds?

From what I see with my own eyes, a large amount of people under the age of 40 have problems even loving themselves. It's something I personally battle with myself. And when you can't love yourself, and you don't know who you are, it's hard to adequately love another. Many relationships out there are based more on a dependence of each other than actual love. Many of them are volatile and toxic but have gone on for so long that it's become second nature. Some people out there may truly feel there is no way out. It may be due to finances, or children, or lack of independence...and some maybe don't know any better.

So thinking about the struggle of being IAR today, I googled "the difference between comfort and love". I found an article written for Elite in October of 2015 by Gigi Engle. You can find the link to the post here, but I especially liked the 2 ending paragraphs:

"Yes, being comfortable may not be nerve-racking. But living without happiness means settling. It means not allowing yourself to experience the most beautiful levels of human existence.

Being happy may be risky, but it’s better than never risking anything -- and therefore never truly living."

But then it comes back around: how can one be happy if one is never satisfied? 

And again, we are back to social media and its endless options. Places where people can put their best foot forward, lie through their teeth and go as far as to catfish people who are just looking for happiness. 
Are we all doomed to settle for a mediocre life because that's our only option left? 

Will only the luckiest of lucky find true happiness in their lifetime?

Maybe we should all focus more on our own self-discovery and less on trying to find a person to make us "whole"...


Saturday, February 24, 2018


I've really fallen off the wagon with writing. Clearly. I've had a lot on my mind as of late and didn't really prioritize the blog. I don't make any income from my writing, but it is therapeutic excuses! LOL.

Today I'm going to write about the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator ( MBTI )

I was introduced to this concept by my friend Summer. I'd never really heard of Myers-Briggs prior to that, and she had me take a test during our girls night at 16 Personalities to determine what mine is. 

I guess there is no real scientific evidence to the test ( kind of like astrology of the psychology world ) but based more on studies and clinical testing.

Per Wiki, the MBTI was originated from Carl Jung's book Psychological Types. Initially there were only four personality types, but today the MBTI recognizes 16. Hence the 16 Personalities test.

My test determined I am an ISFJ aka. The Defender. I guess I'm actually an ISFJ-T...


I am a very self-aware person, and it's amazing how accurate this science-less test is.

Some excerpts from my results are as follows:

"Defender personalities ( especially Turbulent ones ) are often meticulous to the point of perfectionism, and thought they can procrastinate, they can always be relied on to get the job done on time. Defenders take their responsibilities personally, consistently going above and beyond, doing everything they can to exceed expectations and delight others, at work and at home."
Dead on.

"The challenge for Defenders is ensuring that what they do is noticed. They have a tendency to underplay their accomplishments, and while their kindness is often respected, more cynical and selfish people are likely to take advantage of Defenders' dedication and humbleness by pushing work onto them and then taking the credit. Defenders need to know when to say no and to stand up for themselves if they are to maintain their confidence and enthusiasm."

Per, my strengths include:
*supportive ( yes )
*reliable and patient ( yes, and usually )
*imaginative and observant ( always )
*enthusiastic ( meh, I guess 50% of the time? )
*loyal and hardworking ( mostly and yes )
*good practical skills ( for the most part )

And my weakness':
*humble and shy ( I am at the worst possible times )
*take things to personally ( ALWAAAAAAAYYYS! )
*repress their feelings ( uhhhh...=/ )
*overload themselves ( emotionally, yes )
*reluctant to change ( it scares the shit out of me, personally )
*too altruistic ( meaning I put others happiness before my own: yes )

When I initially read over my results, I couldn't believe how accurate they were. It goes into an overview, your strengths/weaknesses, relationships, careers, etc. and it's crazy how on-point it can be. 

Summer was an INFJ, meaning she's more of a dreamer than I am. I deal based on my intuitions and past experience, while INFJs are more daydreamy. It's actually quite interesting.

So if you have a few minutes, I definitely recommend visiting 16 Personalities and checking out your MBTI results. If you're interested in psychology, astrology or self-awareness, it is pretty cool to read in to. 

I'll end with a few ISFJ images:

If you take the test, comment your results below and let me know what personality type YOU are! =]

Monday, January 29, 2018

It's A Two-fer!

Clearly I've been lacking in the writing department!...I failed to do my December Birchbox review and NOW, it's almost the end of January and I didn't do this month's, either! *bad Jenn!* 

I'm sitting here drinking the rum and Diet that I so surprisingly came home to and thought, "I should blog". And since I don't really have any topic I feel like covering today, I'm gonna do two reviews-one post! LOL!

December 2017 Box Review  

Love of Color Liquid Shimmer Shadow
For a liquid eyeshadow, I was pleasantly surprised! It dried fast as to not cause those dreadful "creases" that you can get from such a product. I'm uncertain ( and too lazy to look ) at what color I received, but I think it was Peachy Gold--either way, I like the neutral tone and the touch of shimmer that you get from it. Definitely an awesome liquid shadow!

Whish Botanical Primer
I used this primer over the weekend and thought it worked fine. It felt more like a moisturizer when I applied it, so it made it a little easier to disperse evening over my face. It also didn't give me that "dry" feeling that some primers tend to ( aka. Smashbox Photo Finish primer that I HATE ) I don't usually use primers, as I feel like moisturizer is more of a concern than anything. But I was pleased with the product.

Marcelle Ultimate Volume Nano Mascara
The brush is rubber and teeny-tiny with works great for the corners of the eyes! The only downfall is that I don't feel like it holds much of the actual mascara for application--I felt like I needed to put in back in the tube multiple times to get an adequate amount.

NuFACE Prep-N-Glow Cloths
I got 2 of these and have used one so far. I really liked that it has duel-textures for scrubbing and make up removal. I felt like when I used the exfoliator side that it really wiped away the dead skin and made my face super smooth. 

Aveda Thickening Tonic
I LOVE THIS -ISH! On the weekends, I do a few spritzes at my roots, comb and blowdry and my hair looks awesome!! I naturally have flat, straight hair with lots of fly-a-ways. Some days I'm so frustrated that I honestly want to shave my head. But I really like this product. My hair feels ( and looks ) fuller and I feel like my hair is smoother and not so...crazy...when I use the product. I really like this one, and it was my favorite product in my box.

BONUS!--I got my very first eyelash curler with my December box, as Birchbox included them in all boxes this month! I don't know how I survived without one! 

January 2018 Box Review  

Smashbox Cosmetics Always On Matte Liquid Lipstick 
Again, I'm not certain of the shade that I received but I think it was In Demand...and I actually wore it to work today! I also trusted that it would stay on all day and, for the most part, it did! I actually left the tube at home, so I had no way to reapply. Hahaha! Application is easy and precise with the shape of the brush. I don't usually wear lip color, but I've gotten quite a few nice, nude, matte shades from Birchbox that I've been super pleased with!

DOUCCE Freematic Eyeshadow Single
This color is not a good shade for my skin tone ( I'm thinking it is called Veronica? ) It's more of a yellowish tint, which doesn't look great on a fair-skinned girl who tends to have tints of pink and not yellow. Haha. Meh, you win some and you lose some!

Davines LOVE Smoothing Shampoo/Conditioner
For one, I was super pleased to see that the shampoo sample was a mini-bottle and not one of those "sample packets". Although, that's how the conditioner came, I don't use conditioner everytime I wash my hair so NBD. But this shampoo smells AMAZING! It does suds up, which I like because then I actually feel like my hair is getting clean. And with the conditioner, a little goes a long way. Unfortunately, the duo in full-size is $56 which is a little rich for my taste.

R+Co BADLANDS Dry Shampoo Paste
I haven't tried this product yet, but I'm interested to see how a paste will help my hair not look like a greasy rats nest...

Air Repair Complexion Boosting Moisturizer
I alternate my moisturizer ( I knoooooooow! ) since I have so many samples, and some are "greasier" than others. This one wasn't too bad. It was light and dried quickly--and didn't cause me to break out soooo...

My last box comes in March, and then it's on to another subscription. I briefly looked into Sephora's box, but I may try a snack box or something along those lines. There are so many different options now that it's hard to choose!

Do you have any box that you love receiving monthly? 

Monday, January 8, 2018

Happy 2018!!!!

Long time, no write! It's definitely been a while--a little over a month, actually. It was busy during the holiday season between work and festivities, so I decided to write a catch-up blog post. 

Hold on to your skivvies ( JK...I'm not exciting at all... ) 

We went to see TSO perform again on the 15th in Hershey. We ended up going to Applebee's right down the road for dinner prior, and it took us about 40 minutes to get "two blocks" to the Giant Center. I was a little tipsy off their LIT special ( $1 Long Island's ) and then we realized that the show was pretty much the same thing we saw last year. I mean, I enjoyed it either way but it was a rough week at work and I was ready to get home and get to bed.

I temped Abbey with the promise of crab legs to come out for Christmas. I think it may have been the first Christmas I actually spent with her! She celebrated with her mom's side of the family on the 9th and didn't really have plans for XMAS day, so she drove out and spent the night and we feasted on crab legs and such. It was nice to have her over for the holiday. Since Carol is pregnant and also hates seafood, and dad has gout and can't EAT seafood...I enjoyed having one of my family members there for the evening.

Buddy has been with us since Christmas Day. Nate's dad had him for a few months and ended up not really wanting a dog, so now Nate and I are "fostering" him. Being a part of rescue, I see how hard it is to find homes for "senior" dogs ( Buddy is estimated to be 10 ) I don't want this poor boy to not be loved during his final years, so now--he's ours. He's either a Great Dane or Mastiff mix, he's super chill and lazy ( how I like them! ), easy going and just an all-around good boy. He wants to mark but it's getting less frequent. I'm thinking about getting some Belly Bands to keep his peepee at bay.

On the 30th we had our office holiday party at Hollywood Casino. The boss took us to Final Cut Steakhouse for dinner! I didn't get steak, though; I opted for the scallops with crab mac and cheese. It was delicious! Then we hit the floor with a $10 voucher and a contest for who could win the most off of that. I lost all of mine, unfortunately, but Nate got money out and we took turns playing the ticket. All-in-all we only walked away with an $8 loss. 

Last Saturday I got a new tattoo! I have been talking about this one for almost a year now and finally decided to make it happen. Dust at Ego Ink did this for me and I absolutely love it! I was going to get it on my calve but last minute decided to put it on my left thigh, and I'm glad I did. As funny as it sounds, every time I go to the bathroom I get to see it and I like that I can. Plus, I imagine the back of the leg hurts like a sonofabitch

Lastly, per a previous blog post, I mentioned about the "thankful jar"--I put my first sheet in this weekend! I made it a point to put it on the entertainment center with pre-cut sheets of paper in a bowl. I want to put one in at least once a week, unless something extra happens that I'm pleased by. Although I didn't really set any "resolutions" this year, there are some things I hope to accomplish: take a trip with Mallory to somewhere exotic and out of the country ( since I've never been ), eat better and get back to working out more regularly, and to not let the attitudes of others influence my own so much/learn to be more optimistic and not so pessimistic. I think the first two are attainable, but the latter is going to be the hardest. 

I've decided, also, to flip-flop my therapy sessions between my old and new. I really miss talking to A, even if it did feel like "paying for a friend". I didn't realize how beneficial it was for me until I stopped seeing her. Today was my first session back with her and it felt awesome

I did get a December Birchbox that I did not review ( ...clearly ) but I'll make it a point to post about it here shortly. My January one is already on its way! Eek!

My birthday is two Sundays from now...but 31 isn't that big of a deal...

Well I hope that all of you had a great holiday and a happy New Year, for sure! I'll try to make it more of a priority to get on this thing and write a tad more often. Now that things, and life, seem to be slowing down a bit I will hopefully do so!

Tata for now!