Monday, January 29, 2018

It's A Two-fer!

Clearly I've been lacking in the writing department!...I failed to do my December Birchbox review and NOW, it's almost the end of January and I didn't do this month's, either! *bad Jenn!* 

I'm sitting here drinking the rum and Diet that I so surprisingly came home to and thought, "I should blog". And since I don't really have any topic I feel like covering today, I'm gonna do two reviews-one post! LOL!

December 2017 Box Review  

Love of Color Liquid Shimmer Shadow
For a liquid eyeshadow, I was pleasantly surprised! It dried fast as to not cause those dreadful "creases" that you can get from such a product. I'm uncertain ( and too lazy to look ) at what color I received, but I think it was Peachy Gold--either way, I like the neutral tone and the touch of shimmer that you get from it. Definitely an awesome liquid shadow!

Whish Botanical Primer
I used this primer over the weekend and thought it worked fine. It felt more like a moisturizer when I applied it, so it made it a little easier to disperse evening over my face. It also didn't give me that "dry" feeling that some primers tend to ( aka. Smashbox Photo Finish primer that I HATE ) I don't usually use primers, as I feel like moisturizer is more of a concern than anything. But I was pleased with the product.

Marcelle Ultimate Volume Nano Mascara
The brush is rubber and teeny-tiny with works great for the corners of the eyes! The only downfall is that I don't feel like it holds much of the actual mascara for application--I felt like I needed to put in back in the tube multiple times to get an adequate amount.

NuFACE Prep-N-Glow Cloths
I got 2 of these and have used one so far. I really liked that it has duel-textures for scrubbing and make up removal. I felt like when I used the exfoliator side that it really wiped away the dead skin and made my face super smooth. 

Aveda Thickening Tonic
I LOVE THIS -ISH! On the weekends, I do a few spritzes at my roots, comb and blowdry and my hair looks awesome!! I naturally have flat, straight hair with lots of fly-a-ways. Some days I'm so frustrated that I honestly want to shave my head. But I really like this product. My hair feels ( and looks ) fuller and I feel like my hair is smoother and not so...crazy...when I use the product. I really like this one, and it was my favorite product in my box.

BONUS!--I got my very first eyelash curler with my December box, as Birchbox included them in all boxes this month! I don't know how I survived without one! 

January 2018 Box Review  

Smashbox Cosmetics Always On Matte Liquid Lipstick 
Again, I'm not certain of the shade that I received but I think it was In Demand...and I actually wore it to work today! I also trusted that it would stay on all day and, for the most part, it did! I actually left the tube at home, so I had no way to reapply. Hahaha! Application is easy and precise with the shape of the brush. I don't usually wear lip color, but I've gotten quite a few nice, nude, matte shades from Birchbox that I've been super pleased with!

DOUCCE Freematic Eyeshadow Single
This color is not a good shade for my skin tone ( I'm thinking it is called Veronica? ) It's more of a yellowish tint, which doesn't look great on a fair-skinned girl who tends to have tints of pink and not yellow. Haha. Meh, you win some and you lose some!

Davines LOVE Smoothing Shampoo/Conditioner
For one, I was super pleased to see that the shampoo sample was a mini-bottle and not one of those "sample packets". Although, that's how the conditioner came, I don't use conditioner everytime I wash my hair so NBD. But this shampoo smells AMAZING! It does suds up, which I like because then I actually feel like my hair is getting clean. And with the conditioner, a little goes a long way. Unfortunately, the duo in full-size is $56 which is a little rich for my taste.

R+Co BADLANDS Dry Shampoo Paste
I haven't tried this product yet, but I'm interested to see how a paste will help my hair not look like a greasy rats nest...

Air Repair Complexion Boosting Moisturizer
I alternate my moisturizer ( I knoooooooow! ) since I have so many samples, and some are "greasier" than others. This one wasn't too bad. It was light and dried quickly--and didn't cause me to break out soooo...

My last box comes in March, and then it's on to another subscription. I briefly looked into Sephora's box, but I may try a snack box or something along those lines. There are so many different options now that it's hard to choose!

Do you have any box that you love receiving monthly? 

Monday, January 8, 2018

Happy 2018!!!!

Long time, no write! It's definitely been a while--a little over a month, actually. It was busy during the holiday season between work and festivities, so I decided to write a catch-up blog post. 

Hold on to your skivvies ( JK...I'm not exciting at all... ) 

We went to see TSO perform again on the 15th in Hershey. We ended up going to Applebee's right down the road for dinner prior, and it took us about 40 minutes to get "two blocks" to the Giant Center. I was a little tipsy off their LIT special ( $1 Long Island's ) and then we realized that the show was pretty much the same thing we saw last year. I mean, I enjoyed it either way but it was a rough week at work and I was ready to get home and get to bed.

I temped Abbey with the promise of crab legs to come out for Christmas. I think it may have been the first Christmas I actually spent with her! She celebrated with her mom's side of the family on the 9th and didn't really have plans for XMAS day, so she drove out and spent the night and we feasted on crab legs and such. It was nice to have her over for the holiday. Since Carol is pregnant and also hates seafood, and dad has gout and can't EAT seafood...I enjoyed having one of my family members there for the evening.

Buddy has been with us since Christmas Day. Nate's dad had him for a few months and ended up not really wanting a dog, so now Nate and I are "fostering" him. Being a part of rescue, I see how hard it is to find homes for "senior" dogs ( Buddy is estimated to be 10 ) I don't want this poor boy to not be loved during his final years, so now--he's ours. He's either a Great Dane or Mastiff mix, he's super chill and lazy ( how I like them! ), easy going and just an all-around good boy. He wants to mark but it's getting less frequent. I'm thinking about getting some Belly Bands to keep his peepee at bay.

On the 30th we had our office holiday party at Hollywood Casino. The boss took us to Final Cut Steakhouse for dinner! I didn't get steak, though; I opted for the scallops with crab mac and cheese. It was delicious! Then we hit the floor with a $10 voucher and a contest for who could win the most off of that. I lost all of mine, unfortunately, but Nate got money out and we took turns playing the ticket. All-in-all we only walked away with an $8 loss. 

Last Saturday I got a new tattoo! I have been talking about this one for almost a year now and finally decided to make it happen. Dust at Ego Ink did this for me and I absolutely love it! I was going to get it on my calve but last minute decided to put it on my left thigh, and I'm glad I did. As funny as it sounds, every time I go to the bathroom I get to see it and I like that I can. Plus, I imagine the back of the leg hurts like a sonofabitch

Lastly, per a previous blog post, I mentioned about the "thankful jar"--I put my first sheet in this weekend! I made it a point to put it on the entertainment center with pre-cut sheets of paper in a bowl. I want to put one in at least once a week, unless something extra happens that I'm pleased by. Although I didn't really set any "resolutions" this year, there are some things I hope to accomplish: take a trip with Mallory to somewhere exotic and out of the country ( since I've never been ), eat better and get back to working out more regularly, and to not let the attitudes of others influence my own so much/learn to be more optimistic and not so pessimistic. I think the first two are attainable, but the latter is going to be the hardest. 

I've decided, also, to flip-flop my therapy sessions between my old and new. I really miss talking to A, even if it did feel like "paying for a friend". I didn't realize how beneficial it was for me until I stopped seeing her. Today was my first session back with her and it felt awesome

I did get a December Birchbox that I did not review ( ...clearly ) but I'll make it a point to post about it here shortly. My January one is already on its way! Eek!

My birthday is two Sundays from now...but 31 isn't that big of a deal...

Well I hope that all of you had a great holiday and a happy New Year, for sure! I'll try to make it more of a priority to get on this thing and write a tad more often. Now that things, and life, seem to be slowing down a bit I will hopefully do so!

Tata for now!


Sunday, December 3, 2017

Hot Girls Wanted!

image by BuzzFeed

This dude a fucking tool.

Last Sunday, I delved into the Netflix vortex of binge-watching. I ended up watching the entire docuseries Hot Girls Wanted: Turned On in one fell swoop. The original documentary, along with a few in this 6-part series, were directed by Rashida Jones ( yes, the pretty girl from The Office/Parks and Rec/various movies )  I had previously watched the original documentary so I thought that this would be a good watch, also. One of the episodes featured this man--James Rhine. Immediately, I knew I had to bitch about him.

So apparently Jimbo was on Big Brother ( season 6, I think ) Watching the episode that featured him in this series actually infuriated me. The gist of the hour was pretty much "ghosting", how social media keeps us guessing, how we aren't satisfied as a whole because of all the options, how easy it is to find sexual partners online and the like. And this guy was like, the master of all douchebags.

James is like, 40 years old. He's currently sharing an apartment with 2 women who are probably about half his age. He's addicted to sites like Tinder and Bumble, and he's a complete commitment phobe. The way he portrays himself in his hour is actually disgusting--he plays with women's hearts, hurts feelings, he will disappear without explanation and he keeps a journal of all the women he's slept with ( pretentious much?! ) 

He goes on to explain a little bit about himself prior to his "fame" from BB6. He claims he was always considered the "good guy" and most of his female friends would friend-zone him because of it. He was nerdy and sweet in high school and kind of shy; didn't really date. Then when he was kicked off of Big Brother, his popularity arose. He was getting come-ons from hundreds of women via social media and in person. That's when his popularity got to his head and where it seems the issues started.

In one part of the episode, he had been on a few dates with this really sweet 26 year old girl ( yes, twenty-fucking-six and he's 40! ) They actually seemed to really hit it off. But one MONDAY night James is at his buddies house partying and asks her if she wants to come out. She texts back something about how she can't, because she has work in the morning, and sort-of questions why he's partying on a Monday night. INSTANTLY this dudes demeanor changes. It's like Jekyll and Hyde! He flips the switch and responds with, "Well, it was really nice meeting you. Take care." and BOOM!...just like that, he's done with her. I was just...floored.

But this episode also made me truly realize something: in the midst of social media dating, people are too easily "giving up" on potentially great things all due to the illusion that there's better out there. People will not accept more than 100% of anything because there are SO many other options out there. Even this 40 year old man, who dated far before Facebook, is falling victim to this charade.

I think most people forget that social media is only one side of a person; a side that someone is OK with showing the public. You don't see the tears, the bad days, the messy beds, the messy hair, the dirty dishes, the marital spats, the money issues, the struggle. You only see the good ( well, for the most part ) Expecting that someone is going to be ONLY what they portray online is quite idiotic. But it keeps people from truly knowing what love really is. So then you search for something you will never find.

This dude not only pissed me off, but he also made me feel bad for people who truly don't know any better. For people who will continue to search for "bigger and better" and never finding satisfaction in their lives. Love is about compromise. It's about loving someone for their strengths as well as their weaknesses. It's about wanting to be with someone despite. No one is perfect--a few extra pounds, maybe some depression, self-esteem issues ( too much/too little )--and it's almost impossible to find someone who will 100% fit your "mold". We are all human and we all have downfalls. 

People are trying to find love conditionally.

Toward the end of the episode, James seems to have an "epiphany" ( which I don't full buy ) and states that he needs to be better and more transparent. Unfortunately, the first 40 minutes of the show had already put a bad taste in my mouth, so his eye-opening account didn't do much for me. I feel, at age 40, that he shouldn't be acting like such a child and toying with girls' hearts...especially girls in their 20s. I guess I feel that he should know better.

Dating in this day and age is a catastrophe, especially for those with old souls and old-school values. I guess that's just the way of the world now, though. 

I just hope, like with most things, it's a fad that fades out.  

Oh, and PS. Don't be a dick! 😉


Sunday, November 26, 2017

Off Your Rocker

A lot of my posts have to do with mental health. I do this as part of my own personal therapy. I feel like there is still such a stigma when it comes to mental disease, but I also feel like it's important to self-healing when you're true to yourself and your shortcomings. Dealing with anxiety and depression definitely sucks; you're in your head all the time, you can be having a great time out with friends and then just really want to go home, sometimes it prevents you from evening making plans in the first place, and it can really get you down sometimes. Fortunately, I don't suffer from worse, like manic bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, body dysmorphic disorder--but that doesn't make it any easier during a panic attack or a day where I can't find the energy to get out of bed.

Through research and common sense, though, I've compiled a short list of "dos and don'ts" when it comes to bettering/worsening your mental state. Although having a mental illness doesn't mean your life is over, there are things that you should make a conscious effort to do, and some you should avoid doing. 

Take your fucking meds!
Too many people decide that they "feel better" and just stop their medication. Whether it be due to unwanted weight gain, having horrible memory and forgetting, or just being ashamed that they have to take a daily medication--you're on the medication for a reason. Would you rather pack on a few extra pounds, yet be a sane person that others want to associate with?...or are you that vain that the worst thing you can be is fat?  Plus, when you suddenly stop taking your medication, your body does withdraw. With my new medication, if I don't take it everyday I will literally get a headache or dizzy spells. My body can tell me "hey, you need your medicine"...and I listen. I'd rather be chunky than crazy, that's for sure. 

Working out is medicine in itself. It could be a daily walk around the neighborhood, a Zumba class or some cardio at the local gym...just get your blood pumping! Release those endorphins; you'll feel better inside and out!

Don't drink alcohol, especially in excess!
Alcohol only worsens things. I know people tend to lean towards alcohol to "forget", but when you're a sloppy mess that's 10 seconds away from a complete mental breakdown, it's time to put down the wine and reevaluate your life. You know those girls that get super emotional and cry when they get drunk?...almost certain it's due to their anxiety. Overanalyzing everything in your head and being drunk is a bad combination. A drink here or there is NBD, but when you slam back half a dozen drinks and start talking gibberish via text or social media, you may have a problem. Plus, antidepressants and alcohol are not a good combo--it even states that on every single bottle you fill.

Stay away from triggers
Easier said that done sometimes, I know, but try your damndest to stay away from people or situations that you know are going to trigger you. Have a friend that unintentionally makes you feel bad about your life? See them sparingly. Have family that constantly fights/complains? Visit on only the holidays. Have an ex that you KNOW made you unhappy? Don't fucking go back. It's easier to make these decisions once you have a good sense of self-awareness...without it, you will keep falling back into things that make you sick, not better.

Be OK with not being OK
Find a friend or two that you know that you can trust to come to when you're feeling exceptionally low. There's no reason to display an episode for the whole world to see, but it's important to have someone that you can turn to when you're having a rough time. You're allowed to NOT be OK. When you have a mental illness, there are going to be good days and bad. Even if you DON'T have one, this is also true. But knowing that you have a good support system is part of helping yourself. Whether it be a workout class, a therapy group, your BFF or just having a good cry--it's important to be self-aware and do what you can to make the situation better, not worse. 

Try talk therapy
Like I said, I've been doing this for over a year now. My last therapist all we really did was talk, but my new one is doing EMDR with me ( along with some talk therapy ) Find what works for you. Some people have more than one therapist. Some go once a week, some go a few times a week. It's all about trial and error. I know that it's not cheap, but if you don't have mental health coverage with your insurance, you can also find solace speaking to someone at your local church. Or finding groups online for people who have your same issues. It's easier, I feel, to talk to someone who has experience or knows first hand about what you're going through. When you talk to a world that has no idea, all you look like is a fool. 

I cannot say enough how important self-care is. And you cannot find that within another person. You're not going to die if you're alone for a few years. You don't need to have a man/woman in your life to be whole. It's actually the opposite. Part of being self-aware is that you realize that you can do it on your own and that you don't need another person to "complete" you. For a long time, I was like that--so concerned with always being with someone because I felt like I NEEDED someone all the time. But through experience and heartache, being alone and enjoying that time, I learned more about who I am and what I'm capable of. I don't need anyone else, so those that I have in my life are not out of necessity but want. And that self-awareness helped strengthen me and alleviate some of the depression. Realizing that the only person who can truly affect your depression/anxiety/bipolar is you! 

If you want to be happy, you need to manifest it. Yes, it takes time and a lot of work...but it's achievable. Having anxiety means I'm always in my head; this being said, I try to "be in my head" positively instead of negatively so that I don't worsen my symptoms of sadness. Having a positive attitude is hard when you've never practiced it, but the only way to get better is to stop doing the things that weren't working and try something new! 

Be smart, be aware and be kind.


Friday, November 24, 2017

Dat November Birchbox, Yo...

It's Friday night ( also, Black Friday )...I ain't got shit to I'm sitting here with my rum and Diet and we're gonna talk about my Novembre swag.

That wasn't a typo--that's November en espanol...

I'm actually going to do my reviews A WEEK BEFORE THE MONTH ENDS! It's a gotdamn miracle! 

Here are the goodies:

Wilma Schumann Hydrating Eye Pads
I haven't tried these yet because I usually like to do a "spa night" and use the sheet masks, eye pads, nose strips and moisturizer all in an evening. So I will be keeping these for a night I need a little bit of pampering!

Klorane Shampoo/Conditioner with Mango Butter ( Dry )
I love the way this duo smells, O.M.G! The mango scent is not at all overbearing and you can definitely tell that it's a good shampoo because it doesn't lather a whole lot. I used the shampoo yesterday before turkey day festivities and woke up to another good hair day. So any product that can get me two consecutive days without fly-aways and a messy bun are good in my book!

LAQA & Co. B'Lighter Blush/Highlighter in Peacher's Daughter
I used this product as a highlighter and it looked stupid on me. The color looks horrible with my complexion and, since it's a wax, it's super easy to put WAY too much on ( in which I did ) I felt like a gotdamn Cabbage Patch doll afterwards. Thank God for powders to help tone it down. Not. For. Me.

Avene Hydrance Intense Rehydrating Serum
I used this once with no complaints. I have other products from this brand, and any brand that doesn't cause me to break out is A-OK with me! I was a little hesitant with how "wet" the moisturizer was at first, but it soaked in fast and didn't sit on top of my face. I didn't wake up with any new pimples, either. Plus my nose hasn't been so dry, either.

Stila Cosmetics HUGE Extreme Lash Mascara
LOVE IT! I loooooove it! Great mascara! Nice full lashes. Big application brush. And the sample is a decent size, unlike some of the smaller samples that I've received. This product is definitely my favorite from this month.

My December box is available to customize come November 29, so I have about 5 days left before I can see if there are any samples I have to have. November was considered box #8 so I have a total of 4 more before my subscription ends.

Do any of you have any boxes that you love that you would recommend trying out? Let me know in the comments section below!


Thursday, November 23, 2017


Happy Turkey-Day Y'all!

It's the day we give thanks for our blessings and then die of a food coma for a few hours. It also happens to be my favorite holiday! Can't go wrong with turkey ( dark meat, please! ), mashed potatoes ( um, I'm Irish ) and that motha-fuckin' punkin' pieeeeee! NOMNOMNOM!

On this day, though, we are to be thankful for the good in our lives and not dwell on the bad. Sometimes it's hard to practice that during the rest of the year...or even on just this one day. I know this year has been quite a shitty one: the loss of Nathan's sister, almost $10k spent in vet bills, being rushed to refinance the house, losing Haley, Lola's surgery. I lose site of reality when it feels like the walls are crashing inward. But I like to take this day and reflect on some positives. It also helps that I'm currently reading a book by Daniel Chidiac called Who Says You Can't? You Do that also urges me to see the brighter side and focus less on the negative. 

This book asked me to write what I appreciate down on a piece of paper and recite it for three mornings in a row before continuing on. Well...I haven't been too good about said request. I do have it taped up in my bathroom, though, beside my mirror--so if I DO get ready for work, I can recite them. He asks you to write "inner" appreciations, as well as outer. These are my 10 of each:

As a whole, we are "programmed" to never be satisfied. Whether it is instilled in us or not instilled in us, we all strive to be better or have better. When do we truly sit down and think about what we are thankful for? I think we are too busy comparing ourselves to others and looking at what other people have instead of focusing on the things we ourselves have. I know I'm guilty of it; seeing people with big houses, picture-perfect families, awesome jobs, well educated, constant opportunities, money. But then I have to bring myself back to reality...we ALL have our own personal issues and NO ONE'S life is perfect. 

So to put both my feet back on the ground, I want to write some things that I am truly thankful for ( with specifics, if necessary ):

1. I'm thankful to have mental health services covered on my health insurance. Therapy is something I've felt that I've needed for years but since it's pricey, I never had the opportunity. Working where I do, my sessions are a specialty copay and I can go as often as I want. I've been seeing a therapist for over a year now and I'm very grateful to be able to get myself the help and support that I need.

2. I'm thankful for my health. Although I suffer from mental health issues, which at times can be upsetting, my physical health is good. I've brought up my weight concerns to my doctor and she had no issue with it due to the fact that my blood work is clean. I have no incurable diseases nor due I have anything going on borderline.

3. I'm thankful for a roof over my head, food to eat, heat, central air, hot water and a bed to sleep in. Not everyone has those luxuries, especially these days. I sometimes wish I had this or that or a bigger place or more land and then I realize that what I have is perfect. It's enough. My house ( I can say that now!! ) is the perfect size for 2 people, we own it so we can do whatever we want to it, I can have as many pets as I want, I was able to paint it and decorate any way I wanted and it's *mine*. I may not have "picked it out", but I made it a home and I pay the mortgage on time every month and it's good for US.

4. I'm thankful that I got my shit together when I did and had the sense and ability to maintain a savings account. Of course I always want more, but having that account eased some of the vet bill stress, I'm able to pay my car insurance in full every 6 months, if something goes wrong with my car I have something to fall in to, and I can *finally* take a vacation out of the country. Growing up with little-to-no money and literally working in high school to buy clothes and school lunches, I understand the value of a dollar. Even when I have money, it's important to me to bargain shop and get the most I can from it. You never know what tomorrow can bring, and it's important to me to be prepared for anything.

5. I'm thankful for my good friends and the people I love for loving me in return. I know I can be a handful sometimes and I know that I used to be super overdramatic when I was younger. I know why I was and I'm growing/have grown from that. I've learned to speak less and listen more, and that the world does not revolve around me and my life "coming undone", nor do I need attention like that now that I'm more secure within myself. Everyone has shit. But I've weeded people out of my life that are self-absorbed like that and have no desire to change. The people I have around me now are ones that I truly would do anything for and I know they would do the same. There may not be many, but at my age I'm much more concerned about quality over quantity. 

I spent today with my dad and sister, then we went to Nate's grandma's for dinner with his mom and brother. I ended up making deviled eggs and mini cheesecakes for dad's house. I spent some time with Madilyn and caught up with everyone. My dad is having rotater cuff surgery tomorrow. 

I've decided to start writing down good things that happen to me and putting them in a jar. I saw the idea online and it resonated with me. I feel like 2017 has just been a generally shitty year and I'm hoping 2018 doesn't follow suit, but to even be able to physically SEE blessings on sheets of paper in a jar may invoke some hope. We tend to see the good through all the bad, and having a reminder could be helpful.

Guys, it's super important to try to focus on the positive. I know that it's fucking HARD, but with suffering from anxiety I've realized that when I focus on the bad, it becomes a downward spiral that can last for days. I don't want to be sad and always wanting and pessimistic and being the person to let hateful people get to me--it doesn't make me HAPPY. Happiness starts with you and your mindset.

As I always mantra for life...

Fake it 'til you make it! 


Monday, November 20, 2017

You Do YOU, Girl ( or Boy )

"Don't do shit that makes you feel like shit!" - Mr. Black

"Mr. Black" is my friend Anthony, whom I became close to during my brief time living in Seminole, Florida. He is a fellow blogger ( Mr Black Talks ) and he also has his own podcast, in which I listen to regularly. 

Well, I was listening to The Love Examiner the other week and the segment was called Tis' The Season To Cuff. I was actually headed to Pittsburgh to see a friend when I was listening to the episode and when it was over, I thought "I need to blog about this"...that beginning QUOTE made me want to blog about this...

Self-care is an essential practice that needs to have more importance in our lives. 

Between work, kids, spouses, fitness, friends, family, pets--where do we fit in? 

Why do we deem it so important to be busy/with someone all the time?

So let's chat:

Tony talks about "cuffing" which is pretty much locking down a sig other for the holidays. This usually starts right after Halloween and can last until after Valentine's Day. As a society, we feel that we have to have a special someone to avoid awkward dinner conversations about our love lives, third-wheel dates with friends and cold, lonely nights ( at least up here in PA ) Usually it's nothing serious, just someone to bone for the holidays and bring around to functions. 

In the same episode, he goes on to discuss a list of things you can do instead of hitting up your booty call. A lot of the things listed could also be considered self-care. We need to learn how to not be lonely while being alone. 

We need to learn how to enjoy and lavish in our alone time.

Instead of trying to hit up the opposite sex, you have other options. Tony goes on to read his list from the blog post and these are a few of my favorites:

Go to sleep! 
Don't drink, don't think too much...just treat yourself to an early bedtime. Nobody needs to fucking know; it doesn't make you lame. Think of how refreshed you'll feel in the morning!
Learn a new hobby on YouTube
I've learned how to do many things by watching YouTube tutorials, including knitting and crocheting. It's a great way to pass the time, advance your skill set and keep your mind occupied.

Netflix binge
Dude, I'm in a relationship and still "Netflix and chill"...but when I N&C, I literally have sweats on, hair pulled up, blankets on with a cup of hot tea and Lola on my lap. Even before Nate, there are nights where I just sat on my couch bundled up and watching Netflix for hours. Some nights you just need to do nothing.

Go to the gym
Exercise not only makes you feel better but ( at least for me ) it redirects my brain. Why not do something productive to pass the time instead of waiting for a man to text you at 2 AM so he can get it in and get out?

I think he lists about 20 more alternatives, so if you'd like to read them all you can find them here.

But the thing that really got to me, and the origin of that quote, was when Tony was discussing going home for the holidays.

Look, not everyone has an awesome family. Sometimes siblings don't get along. Sometimes dad is a fall-down drunk. Sometimes grandma likes to preach the Bible and Aunt Suzy is way too prodding in her questions about your choice to have ( or not have ) children. For people like this, the holidays can be pretty dreaded. 

As adults, though, we need to realize that we can make our own choices. We shouldn't have to explain ourselves. We have the option to not do shit that makes us feel like shit. Even if that involves upsetting some people. Why make yourself feel miserable if you don't have to? Why teeter on a mental breakdown if it can be avoided?

Self-care doesn't always involve indulging yourself--it includes doing what's best for your own mental state. includes finding something else better to do than wait for your booty call to hit you back. includes going to Jamaica on Easter because you can. includes saying "no" when you really want to, because you're an adult and you have that option. includes putting yourself first every now and then...